5 Weeks Ago Today

Celebrating every minute of every day. 5 weeks ago, I was lucky! Appendix ruptured, and peritonitis was setting in but I escaped death just in time. Gratitude hits me in waves;)

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No you just don't get me

Now your dark energy sets me free, even though you didn't mean it to be.

This time I let it ride, oh all the lines and lies

And lived in spite

Lies always killin me

But this time I know I'll live to see

The northern lights shining bright, on the end of the Earth.

More sunny days and party nights. 

All I am and can be again

You didn't kill you didn't win

I pushed the dark into the light

I sold your lies to buy my life

I'm well and good as I'll ever be

The toxic mass, absorbed your hate. I turned from anger to change my fate.

Dancing free, I finally found me. 

More Appendectomy Thoughts

One morning after a laparoscopic appendectomy, I awakened with the profound realization that my own existence does indeed have validity.  Upon that realization, I vowed to never again question my place in this world. Whether or not people like me-doesn't matter. Whether or not people outside of my beautiful family understand me-can no longer injure my feelings. Fear of being misunderstood and subsequently judged poorly, is as useful as my harvested appendix. I'm free to be myself-free to explore my own story as a writer; to celebrate that freaky story with love and pride. I own this. What a great gift for the new year. 

7 O'Clock 1/2/14

When 7 o’clock comes,

And you can’t make the call,

When you try to go on,

But feel lost in it all.

Where everything changes,

In the blink of an eye,

Where you can’t find your place,

No matter how hard you try.

How do you keep moving,

When you've lost your stride,

How do you face every day,

Knowing something has died?

Why can’t it be simple?

Why can’t you ever feel whole?

Why is the pain never-ending,

That you feel in the depth of your soul?

TLA